Serenity & Agitation. A perfect combination.

I can now relate to that dream in my last post. My last couple of days have been good. I did manage to do a couple of stupid things but i sorta balanced out the bad my regretting my actions and asking for forgiveness. I actually feel a lot better knowing i’m concerned about the aftermath of my actions, and actually can feel deeply remorsed. Ah, its probably slighty concerning that i feel as if i’ve done something really bad, but i have, and denying the fact it’s bad will just put me at stage 1 again. I promised myself i wouldn’t go out anymore for stupid… Ah, whatever. ↲The so-called fear i went through a couple of days back happens quite often, so y’know. It comes and go’s, and i make it out to myself that it’s just a state of mind. Right, enough of that.↲Today, it was nearly the end of the world for me. But my dear friend redstitches helped me out so much, i actually am laughing about it. Love her man. And oh, i’m adding bengali’s to my awesome list. They’re awesome along with pakistani’s. ↲It was like the best and most catastrophic day i’ve endured this whole year. I’ll decide whether i should expand on this post later. *yawn* I’m sleepy. Ever since THAT promise i’ve never actually slept that late. So maybe i should sleep now. I’ll think. Oh’s prayer first. :-)