August 2011
2 posts
July 2011
9 posts
To MIA.
BoostLover songs just replied, said she cant make it; family duties. x LY
Inside an embellished relationship, there lies a...
February 2011
1 post
Being cheech tonight.
December 2010
1 post
To Blackberry
If you’re reading this stuff - be sure to ignore.
Just to assure you - this stuff has been posted quite a while ago (If you press the green book thing - it’ll tell you)
Stay safe, my little friend.
October 2010
3 posts
“The people who laugh the most have experienced the most pain.”
– (via ohsoteenage)
August 2010
3 posts
April 2010
3 posts
Had enough.
I’M SO MALEVOLENT I COULD KILL A SPIDER AND FEEL NO SIGN OF REMORSE.
I’m going to be away for a while. It’s my final decision. Least 3/4 days, max a week.
<3
...
Poor worker bees; they're neuter. (this post has...
I can now relate to that dream in my last post. My last couple of days have been good. I did manage to do a couple of stupid things but i sorta balanced out the bad my regretting my actions and asking for forgiveness. I actually feel a lot better knowing i’m concerned about the aftermath of my actions, and actually can feel deeply remorsed. Ah, its probably slighty concerning that i feel as...
Disillusion and disappointments?
Tbh, doing all this freaky research is just scaring me to death. :/
I can’t fight my thoughts. I can’t. I just can’t. I’m letting everything take over. I keep having the same dreams too. And the meanings not pleasant either. ‘ITS APPEARANCE IN A DREAM ANNOUNCES DISILLUSIONS AND DISAPPOINTMENTS.’ I need to do at least an hour of work before I let myself rest. I...
March 2010
2 posts
Like you said
At times like this I can only turn to my stupid blog. I’m raging. argh.
AAAAAAASZRZGHH FUCJOKIGHING TART.
I’ve decided to walk alone, live alone, and abandon everyone. If they’re all like this, then you know what.. fine,
If it’s offending you that I don’t take sides, I wont. I wont even bother. I frickin joined you cuz I thought you wouldn’t backchat,...
After what seems like a lifetime, I can actually...
long title, huh? I wanted it to be long and sort of tedious to bore the shit outta you. I’ve been called the word i’ve hated all my life today, and it put me off. About crack.. I’m confused. I’m such a shittake. I never think of anything but them, and when i am near them, i act like a total retard, and pretend they are nothing to me. I remember cracks username for some...
February 2010
2 posts
'Extremist thinkers' LOL
I don’t know how to start, how to end, what to do, where to go, nothing.↲↲I’m madly in love with someone that doesn’t care or understand, and is very different. Oh man..↲I’m on my phone tryna put my butt at rest. I’m just lying down on the coach, chillin’, going mental-ish. Whatever.↲↲I’m kinda happy now that stuff are back to normal. I missed crack, and...
Part 2 - The Update
I did say I was planning something, right.. ?
Well here it is, I’m planning to make this really long, and I’ve got all the idea’s down.
PROLOGUE;;
...
Part 1 - The Update
It seems like forever, right…
So much has happened really; let the great things go first.
I’m a sister to another sibling now. Little boy, a month and a half now. I call him Jesus although his name is VERY different. He’s taken up a lot of my time, sometimes when I feel like I need something to do; I find his hands my special toy. If you have a baby around, I’m telling you look at his/her...
December 2009
2 posts
Just when you thought it was ALL BETTER.
I haven’t been on the computer for a long time, uh.. okay.. three days maybe, and yah.. I think I should just die, like really, I want to this time.
I checked my email, and felt like joining a group on face-book, and my friends posted something to tease me, argh. Not just that.. why do I call them my friends? If one minute they’re with me, and another against. I now understand what...
A Filler.. into my forlorn, tedious journey..
I’m in such a painful/happy moment. I’ve never even believed I can undergo this before.
Yesterday, knowing that I was allergic to the make up I used decided to splatter it all over my face, it was pretty painful, and my face has swollen up. It’s a diverse look, I just thought I’d try and face the aftermath, the pain and the well… red face. So, now… I’ve just experienced a joyous but...
November 2009
6 posts
i hateeeeee you
Okay, I’m actually gonna type this…
I hate you, I hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate yuo, i hate you, i hate you, i hate u, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i gate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i...
12640.) I started cutting again last night. I...
(via blogsecret)
scary. it hurts on the stomach..
Wondering...
So, I’ve just taken life as a long story,
I don’t know the ending.. I’m just in it. In order to get that happy ending I want.. I gotta stop being the foolish person I am now.. I can’t stop sinning, and yah..
I have my first external actual real first important exam.. wow, haha.
oh, and here’s some cool phrases..
Whenever I find the key to success, someone...
Why am I so negative?
Rawr, let me see the more optimistic side of things..
Silence...
Okay, I’ll just shut up.. seeing you think I’m a kid that just rants on.
Correction;; I know more than you think I do. :-)
Breaking the Unbreakable..
I like to seem un-emotional, I think its a state of mind, when I try and be somewhat insensitive, I am. But then when everything hits you.. right at you.. You break, just.. suddenly…
I have to admit I was much wiser before, because I wanted to seem wise, but back then I loved empathy.. wow. Dude, I loved it. Now.. I abhor it. They all pretend to care, they all have their own little fucked...
October 2009
4 posts
Wants.. Needs..
The only things I want now is to succeed in all exams, grow up, get my own job and move out. I also want God to be happy.
I dont know whether or not I need my family then, hard, hard. I need to study, study real hard so I can get where I want to be.
Thats it really.. my wants and needs. To accomplish my wants, I need to tick off those needs. :S
Angst........
Waking up early is not so good. >.<
From debating, to argueing to screaming.. it’s hard, I cant help but let these tears run down my cheek, I may not be living in the luxury I want to be living in, I must remember I am fortunate…
Mom and I are fighting.. not physically. but whatever. I have so many things to worry about.. and none can find a way out of my head. A friend thats...
What have I ever done? huh?
I often think.. (duh!) to myself what I’ve ever done to people so they can throw everything back at my face. Like.. really?
I love being on the lookout for my friends, and I often forget my personal pleasures for them, I try not to take sides, but.. they don’t care.
Some shittakes do look up to me, but that doesn’t mean they become my friends because of loyalty but fear, or...
Serenity and Agitation
Serenity.
Soft, silent whispers
set off a soothing unwinding feeling
penetrating to the rest of my body. I feel it echo until I find myself in a vortex of pure warmth, complete relaxation.
Nothing can break this moment of bliss
Nothing
Until I think of you…
Agitation.
I’m screaming,
my euphoria is morphing into icy shivers.
I feel the throbbing pain travelling up my spine, violently...
September 2009
16 posts
You tumblers post awesome pictures up! :)
Your tumblarity?
Mines.. 24? lmao
What about you guys?
O SHI- I DIDN'T REALISE THAT LAST ONE WAS A GIF...
lethifolds:
I ALMOST SHAT MYSELF WHEN IT MOVED.
HAHAHA!
Its soo cool though!! I’m looking for MCR pics now.. its fun! :D
I get SICK of people calling me emo.
My friends’d be ‘joking around’ not seeing I’m so damn offended.
Yeah, that’s all.
I love you,
but I’m afraid of getting too close.
Google should be rated 'R'
Title says it all.
I’ll tell you why… I typed ‘scream blood’ on google images.. and ewww.. Found the most disturbing picture!! Some eye.. yuck.
Maybe it should have like.. that parental guidance thing… And your parents have to be to check out whatevers gonna pop up, then give you permission to see it, until you reach 50 or something.. or maybe not. Lol. I have the...